for some reason

I have been afraid to post anything lately. Maybe because I am afraid of reality. This week I had one of those days. A kimchi and rice day. It was lunchtime, and all that they had was some greasy meat potato thing, some vegetables with fake crab, some soup that had meat dumplings in it, and of course, kimchi, and rice. So, I faked a smile and sat down to eat my wonderful lunch. I tell you, rice everyday... White rice... Never any brown rice or basmati or something. Bleached rice. It is kind of like eating wonder bread every day.

Kimchi and rice days rarely happen, but it still catches me off guard when it does happen. I understand that I am a guest and that I should not expect them to bend over backwards for me and yodda yodda... I am only at that school 2 days a week, so you'd think that maybe on those two days they would possibly adjust the menu to at least have 1 dish that doesn't contain meat or fish? AAAHHHH frustration.

Anyhoo it is Chuseok, or Korean thanksgiving, so I have 3 days off, and I have a little "changing season" bug. No, it is not H1N1. I sat at my computer all of my waking hours today and I love it. My time has been well spent. Here is some of the evidence:



Here is some more:


Step inside, pathetic life, won’t you? It’s the time you’ve been so [loved]. You’ve been so…
All your life you’ve been so contro[versial]. You see, it’s working!
Don’t smile all the time to suck the same lines, lines.

You’re through, you’re through

Fork, it needs [to] be stuck yeah, and I’m running, I’m running yeah.
It’s been so long and I’m coming, I’m coming yeah.
No, it won’t appraise and I’m bumming, I’m bumming yeah.
Eff what you want me to say (2x)

I see right through your hollow smile (2x)
Believe it’s true, you saw the sign (2x)
Believe it (2x), believe

Yeah, in two's line the outside, at full speed yeah, pummeling retaining wall death! Look at me now! The lives I’m erasing seem not small yeah. As their sh burns.

Fork, it needs [to] be stuck yeah, and I’m running, I’m running yeah.
It’s been so long and I’m coming, I’m coming yeah.
No, it won’t appraise and I’m bumming, I’m bumming yeah.
Eff what you want me to say (2x)

Yeah. The sink, it’s through the swallow (2x) yeah
Believe it’s true, so follow

A month yeah ‘till the serpents grow. Unidentity charred on.
And yet you knew the whole time that we were this close to not living.
This close to not living.
And at the same time the unknowing explosive gas sprays recklessly yeah.

Fork, it needs [to] be stuck yeah, and I’m running, I’m running yeah.
It’s been so long and I’m coming, I’m coming yeah.
No, it won’t appraise and I’m bumming, I’m bumming yeah.
Eff what you want me to say (2x)

A month yeah ‘till the serpents grow. Unidentity charred on.
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah look at me now! Yeah yeah. Look at me!

Death before disco


I know that "unidentity" is not a word. It should be.